I stared at the ceiling, my eyes and mind eagerly searching for tonight's thought.
The ceiling was white and...plain. 'My room needs a serious redecoration' I thought.
There! Found it! Now I just need to focus on the topic.
I like rooms with light pink walls and a good view from the window. Maybe the sea, or a lake. Water's a pretty good view.
'Yeah, its good for drowning too!'
NO! Must stay on topic.
I'd have a large bookshelf of my favourite books and maybe I'd have my own book wishlist in the corner. I'd read love stories and fantasise over the idea of having someone to love you.
'Cause books give you a glimpse of the life you can never have'.
Shush! Please, no...!
Characters in books are better then you'll ever be. They're perfect with great bodies and brains, and they have loads of friends. What do you have?
I'm pretty! And yeah, I maybe slightly over weight but that doesn't mean I'm not beautiful. I do have one friend who is way better than a thousand friends combined!
She's probably your friend by pity. You're own parents don't like you.
No...Please just stop, I beg you!
You're worthless. You're ugly. You're dumb. No one can ever love you. Ever!
My shoulders shake violently as I try to hush the sound of my pain moulding into tears. Wetness travelled my cheeks as I lay in bed, quietly succumbing to defeat.
Worthless, ugly, dumb, unloved.
Gripping onto my blanket, drowning in a pool of my tears.
The night begins...
- silencereveals
